http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/ Tue, 16 Jun 2009 17:06:23 GMT Tue, 16 Jun 2009 17:06:23 GMT http://sta.yculblog.com/images/logo/general-88x31.gif http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/ http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3351752.html http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3351752.html Tue, 16 Jun 2009 16:06:21 GMT http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3310555.html

It took a while to pick the old site up and recall what the password was. Honestly I liked every single inch of this place and fortunately it still works...yeah!

2008 went past in a blink of an eye, blending my tears and pain with hundreds of emo posts which no one understood well enough but me. I started to miss home, a lot, and then less and less and lot a less...now I am not even sure what it is going to be like being back home. I think of the old days when we bunch of idiots defined the meaning of stupidity into its full extent. So-called friends are still so-called friends who would turn their back on you without u even sense a change in the dynamic. 

Nothing much worths getting too sentimental upon cuz I should've seen better, after all it is still myself getting back to the basics to set myself well on track and chase after the impossibles. 

All else being said, wish me well in all my exams.... ]]> http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3310555.html Tue, 09 Jun 2009 00:06:00 GMT http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3129557.html



keeps on getting better... ]]> http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3129557.html Sat, 10 Jan 2009 17:01:17 GMT http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3097517.html

u feel like throwing up even jus bcoz of their smell, but u still need em, want em as much as u can, to get some relief. its become part of ur nature of being miserable, never admit but its true, now is even worse cuz rock n rock cant save u from it nd u knew it, its jus oh dude, its too bad. the more u try the further u get, the more lost u are
somebody tell me its part of the plan, someone tell me please fuck, tell me please, it is, part of the plan, to hold me up and break me down over nd over again
i dun wanna take another shot jus to black myself out, i rather go nd get run over by someone, the fukin alchol is killlllin me, fuck, fukc fuck...ohhhhh wat is the best time to blog? if someone asks u, its when ur tipsy or fkin drunk
i kno i wouldnt bother to come back nd read my own post tomoro when im sober...but i kno better than anybody does is dat, sadly, i still need dat 6th shot to blakc the pathetic myself out

its too late, its just too late now, its too late

im hurting, im hurting so bad, cant u feel ? dunt u kno?
im breaking down really bad thissss time...... ]]> http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3097517.html Mon, 24 Nov 2008 14:11:32 GMT http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3096714.html I am tired.


I wanna stop,
I wanna rest,
I wanna quit,

and I wanna go somewhere feels like home.

... ]]> http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3096714.html Sun, 23 Nov 2008 08:11:47 GMT http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3096704.html

















... ]]> http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3096704.html Sun, 23 Nov 2008 11:11:00 GMT http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3088696.html by Young Jeezy 


Yeah Be The Realest Shit I Never Wrote
I Aint Write This Shit By The Way Nigga
Some Real Shit Right Here Nigga
This Will Be The Realest Shit You Ever Quote

{{Hook}}

My President Is Black, My Lambo's Blue
And I Be God Damn If My Rims Aint Too
My Momma Aint At Home & Daddy Still In Jail
Tryna Make A Plate Anybody Seen The Scale

My President Is Black, My Lambo's Blue
And I Be God Damn If My Rims Aint Too
My Money's Light green And My jordans Light Grey
And They Love To See White Now How Much You Tryna Pay
Lets Go!

{Verse 1}

Today Was A Good Day Hope I Have Me A Great Nite
I Dunno Wat U Fishin For Hope U Catch You A Great White
Need I Say Great White Heavy As Killer Wales
I Cannot Believe This Who Knew It Came In Bails
Who Knew It Came Wit Jail Who Knew It Came With Prison
Jus Cuz You Got An Opinion Does That Make You A Politician
Bush Robbed All Of Us Would That Make Him A Criminal
& Den He Cheated In Florida Would Dat Make Him a Seminal
I Say And I Quote We Need A Miracle
And I Say A Miracle Cuz This Shit Is Histerical
By My Nephews And Nieces I Will Email Jesus
Tell Him Forward To Moses And CC: Allah
Mr Soul Survivor Does That Make Me A Konvict
Be All U Can Be Now Dont Dat Sound Like Some Dumb Shit
When You Dogged Of Crew Orders Black As My Nigga Boo
It's Really A Desert Storm Thats Word To My Nigga Clue
Catch Me In Las Vegas, A.R. Arizona
Rep For Them Real Niggaz Im Winnin In California
Winnin In Tennessee Hands Down Atlanta
Landslide Alabama On My Way To Sevana

{{Hook}}

{Verse 2}

Woke Up This Morning Headache THIS BIG!
Pay All These Damn Bills Feed All These Damn Kids
Buy All These School Shoes Buy All These School Clothes
For Some Strange Reason My Son Addicted To Polos
Love Me Some Spinach Dip Im Addicted To Use This
And If The Numbers Is Right I Take A Trip Out To Houston
A Earthquake Out In China A Hurricane In New Orleans
Street Dreams Tour I Showed My Ass In New Orleans
Did It For Soulja Slim Brought Out B.G.
Its All Love From The Beginnin You Pimp C
You Know How The Pimp Be
That Nigga Go'n Speak His Mind
If He Could Speak Down From Heaven
He Tell Me Straight All My Crimes
Tell Him Im Doin Fine Obama For Mankind
We Ready For Damn Change So Ya'll Let The Man Shine
Stuntin On Martin Luther Cuz Im Feelin Just Like A King
Guess Dis Is Wat He Meant Wen He Said Dat He Had A Dream

{{Hook}}

{Nas}

History, Black History
No President Ever Did Shit For Me
Had To Hit The Streets Try To Flip Some Keys
So A Nigga Wont Go Broke
Then They Put Us In Jail Now A Nigga Cant Go Vote
So I Spend Dough All These Hoes Is Trippin
She Aint A Politician Honeys A Polotician
My President Is Black Rolls Golden Charms
22 Inch Rims Like Hulk Hogans Arms
When Thousands Of People Is Riled Up To See You
That Can Arouse Ya Ego You Got Mouths To Feed So
Gotta Stay Tru To Who You Are And Where You Came From
Cuz At The Top Will Be The Same Place You Hang From
No Matter How Big You Can Ever Be
For Whatever Fee Or Publicity Never Lose Your Integrity
For Years Theres Been Surprise Horses In This Stable
Just Two Albums In I'm The Realest Nigga On This Label
Mr Black President Yeah Obama Fa Reel
They Gotta Put Ya Face On The 00 Dollar Bill

{{Hook}}

{Outro}

So Im Sittin Here Right Now Man
Its June 3rd Haha 2:08 Am
Nigga I Wont Say Win, Lose Or Draw
Man We Congratulate You Already Homie
See I Motivate The Thugs Right
You Motivate Us Homie
Thats What It Is, This A Hands On Policy
Ya'll Touchin Me Right
Yeah 1st Black President
Win, Lose Or Draw Nigga Haha
Matta Fact You Know What It Is Man
Shouts Out Jackie Robinson
Booker T Washington Homie
Oh Y'all Aint Think I Knew That Shit!
My President Is Black
I'm Important Too Though!

=PEACE=... ]]> http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3088696.html Sat, 08 Nov 2008 13:11:14 GMT http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3086474.html it is not that bad, stay strong, it is not that bad, hold on, it is not that bad, keep moving, it is not that bad, just a few more steps, 















and I'm almost there.

... ]]> http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3086474.html Tue, 04 Nov 2008 16:11:27 GMT http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3083874.html fuck yeah! cuz tt is GONE real soon,
good-bye my month of 21st, FUCKING October 2008!
... ]]> http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3083874.html Thu, 30 Oct 2008 21:10:15 GMT http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3083866.html
It is the sound in my tummy tells me it is starving like hell, it is this glamorous Vista premium system that takes longer than I take a poo to set up, it is those so-called sexy popular songs which are nothing but a spot-on arousal for perverts and morally skewed topics playing all over the radios, it is the fake-ass-wanna-bees who deserve nothing but a deadly stab into the eyes,It is the never-ending-wonder-why mechanism in my brain cell keeps me haunted and hurt... it is a bit of eveything, maybe it is only the frustration of not getting into sleep itself.

I am not sad, nor emo, nor drunk...I only found this particular moment special enough to write some stunning thoughts down.

I look back down on myself, I seem more complicated and calmer than when I used to put in bulks of emo entries, sadly I still do. I had been driven mad, out of control, and lost of consciousness (only due to over induction of alcohol). Consequently, more than often, seeking thrill or hurting myself to fortunately balance out the anxiety that was produced from the miserable nowhere. Now they are all becoming part of the habbit, habbit that I would call the habbit of simply getting thru.

I thought of quit, like completely, by running away from whatever the hell is out there, shutting down myself, leaving all of my obligation forfeit... I'd never dare to try, but the feeling of being drifted away under the influence of alcohol helps 'giving up', for only just a matter of day of shutting down, does help...

A lot more things are getting clearer, less naive vivid and fantasy pictures of life comes to mind, which is a bit of pain, still, ye getting thru.




*I am getting less and less like I used to be, it is not fine...cuz I still feel like fucking smacking someones, kicking, breaking, smashing shits and craps in real and in my head, and tearing down whatever is on the way as much as I can till myself dies out eventually. Maybe I do enjoy being like that, but who cares.

Now, it is late, and I need some sleep...... ]]> http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3083866.html Thu, 30 Oct 2008 21:10:11 GMT http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3074737.html kept going for too long too rough, knew i was too far gone, far enough to lose myself 
it was all dat i did to myself, wrecking me, breaking me down
something did become something that i could not afford, i was right
So fuck it!

Fuck the consequence, fuck tomorrow, I don't need them, I don't give a shit, I don't fucking care!
FUCK'em all..




it feels better with all the punks and rocks that i used to love, and i still do, 
they bring me back to life, they make me feel alive, and I figured out why
and maybe it was never too bad at all to be on my own
finally I'm feeling back to life, I'm feeling so alive...after all
You do not understand, you just don't!





told ya, there'd be pain, there'd be blood, there'd be tears and there'd be alcohol
1,2,3, then only a little bit more, a tiny bit more 4,5,6 down the throat to help me forget, to stand up, to move one leg forward, to move on, to fix up the so-fucked-up myself, to save me...and to fucking drift myself away

... ]]> http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3074737.html Wed, 15 Oct 2008 12:10:49 GMT http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3073575.html Baby tell me that I can make it, tell me that we can make it, RIGHT?!





...so need your warm kisses and firm hugs...







Tomorrow, I will get it! I will, I will!!!

... ]]> http://aflaoninle.ycool.com/post.3073575.html Mon, 13 Oct 2008 12:10:35 GMT